Guts and Honesty.

Have you ever feel that you were so broken and hurt till you have no choice at all but to pretend how happy you are? Well, school haven't been that easy. I try my best not to meet his eyes cause there's my weakness. At least there were some improvements. I don't get hurt everytime he talk to his ladies and claims that they're his bestfriends. Honestly, I couldn't care less. Maybe because I don't know. He doesn't hurt me as much as he did last time. I know it's not easy but moving on from him is easier that it was with SK.

Maybe one of the reason is I found Danial. I admit he doesn't have that connection I used to have with him but Danial impress me. He makes me smile. I'm not sure if I really like him but yeah probation right? I don't expect him for anything and neither is he. He's so shy. LOL yeah I met him on Sunday. He's so so shy and adorable. I couldn't stand but to laugh the whole time we were together. Haha he cares and that's all I need. He keeps my mind away from other negative people and he makes me laugh. Funny guy. Haha

Oh yeah, I have debate this week. Means, I'm meeting another one of the people in my past. I hope I still have the guts to face him. Actually, nobody really knows the real reason why I want to leave him and why I have to hurt him but me. Yeah I know he'll see me as the bad guy cause I had no choice. I can't make him understand, I can't make anyone understand cause this matter is something that can't be fixed or tolerate. I really liked him, that's for sure. I really, really liked him. But I don't have any other choice but to hurt and leave him.

I told the story to my MUET teacher. She understands. She told me that she admires my guts. I also told her that her favorite student reminds me a lot of the one I'm gonna meet in debate this Saturday. That's why we were close. We can connect with each other. I miss. Never mind. Well all the best for my debate team cause the bloody motion is so dry and stressful. Pray for the best. Yeah. Haha

Till then, I'll see you soon.