Rush of Flashbacks

Today is a date that I will remember. Both happy and sad. Today is the debate competition. One of the things I don't like about debate is that someone I'm gonna meet there. Well, it's me being just me. Of course I won't give up that fast. It's for the teachers and I was aiming for best speaker. I have been wanting to be the best speaker so bad cause the other two of my members already have their titles. So, the motion that we were debating about is "Advertisements aimed on children should be banned." We are the government team.

The 1st round was actually something that we never expected. No one raised up they're hand and asked me questions, that I've been dying to answer. Haha well, anyways. We won the debate. Then it was time to present the Best Speaker title. I was very confident that Naim is going to get that title again cause he was intimidatingly good. Haha Suddenly, the housekeeper goes "The best speaker goes to Iman Farahin". My first reaction was "What?!" It got all blur and I had to like take some time to digest what I just heard. The happiest moment of my life.

I worked really hard to get that title. Rewriting my damn speech. Asking for opinions by the two awesome and the legendary debaters Sheikh and Tasha. I'm so glad I got the title. People used to underestimate me that I couldn't do it. Well, see. In your face haters! Best speaker here! Haha then one thing came to my mind. That one thought that I feared. Our team are going against that school. The school that Isaac goes to. For sure I've been expecting it but it's him.

I couldn't breathe. Literally. I felt like throwing up as I walked in the room. I'm not exaggerating or anything but it's true. I couldn't breathe. I put my bags and I went out of the classroom and control my breathing and my shaking hands. I just looked at all the trees and breath slowly. I know that my weakness is when I look him in the eyes. I couldn't stand but I swallowed my fear and just go on with it. My whole team kept telling me that it's gonna be okay. Well, I kinda nailed it when I went and speak. The applause meant a lot to me.

Well, right after they won (obviously), he called my name and said "good job". I smiled and said thanks. My teacher came up and pinched me, literally dragged me to him and told me to wish him. The pinch was painful okay. I did went to him and said "Good argument". I smiled and walked away. Coincidentally, their teacher asked Luke to take picture for them. As usual I had to wait for him. They stood in a line and of course he stood in the middle.

I was sitting and staring at the floor and I met his eyes. He was already looking. That rush of flashbacks and pain. That feeling. I used to love him so much. It doesn't matter now cause I'm the bad guy in his eyes. I left. He didn't know the real reason I left. I had to hurt him. I just had to. I can tell you that walking away from him was the hardest thing to do in my life. I had to cause I know what's coming. I don't blame him for hating me. Yeah. If only he knew. Argh! I don't know! He always makes me blur... sigh.

So, Best Speaker title and this. Lol not a good combo. That's all I guess? Till then.