Little Things

I've always wondered, why can't we get the one that we want. I mean sometimes in our lives, we will meet someone who is made just for you but you can never have them. I hate it when it happens. One moment you were everything to them and the other moment you don't even exist in their lives.

I had that feeling once. I swore to myself that I wouldn't let it happen again. There was that rare connection that I've been longing for. I never found anyone else that had that connection after him. It was strong and inevitable. But I guess as life goes on, people just grew apart from you. I loved the connection we had but what can I do. I fell hard for the person I thought he was. It's all just in my head.

From that day onward, I told myself to never fall for anyone as hard as I did with him. I told myself that I couldn't let myself hurt anymore. Enough is enough. Well, guess what? Life is just not done with me. I met another one. He was just in my sight since the first time I lay my eyes on him. Everything after that was just plain coincidence. Which I also hate because it's like everything is repeating all over again.

Everything always works out at first. Only at first. Then it always has it ways to just ruin everything that's nice in this world. Luckily this time I knew what was going on. I knew that by letting it happen, it will hurt me badly. But that's the thing with love. It hurts anyways even when you try to prevent it from happening. You just can't help it. I let it happen anyways. My heart suffered enough for this past month.

Honestly, none of those are important. What hurts the most are the memories, moments that you will never get back. The little things that you hold on to even when things changes. The connection, the right feeling. They just know where to touch you. Just like that, everything is over. Things that used to be routines just became a one time thing. Perfect just doesn't last and life waits for no one.

Too bad for people like us huh? The ones who always can't get what they want even if it's just right in front of you. The ones who always lose to the prettier ones, the more appealing ones. It's like life is telling you "Hey, that's just the way it is and there's nothing you can do about it".