It's Time?

I noticed a few changes of myself for this whole semester break. I'm not sure whether it will permanent but I hope it will. I changed my hairstyle, the way I dress. Slowly, the way I am. I can feel that there is a difference you know. I'm not quite sure whether it will work out as I want to but they said give time some time.

Sembreak is almost over and I am so not ready to go back campus. At least this is only for 7 weeks. Too bad I'm not gonna have my car when I go back. Well, it's worth the wait for my new car! Oh yeah, the first semester was me playing it cool with everybody. This time, I'm not going to hold anything back. I kinda admire how Dianna Agron is in Glee. Poise, elegant and sophisticated. Oh, Naya Rivera, Santana. She's just awesome. Mostly though, Lea Michele. Determined on what she wants in life and let nobody stop her from achieving it.

Oh I'm definitely going be that even though my college is you know, meh. I'm more focused on what my future holds now. What I want to be. Which is The Best. I won't let anyone or anything stop me from reaching there. I know that it's easier to be said than done but hey, what I got to lose? Results are going to be out in 2 days time. Hopefully I did well. I'm just freaked out. Like very much. I don't know. I did tried my best. Begging that it would be enough to get me to the exchange program. I just can't be distracted by anything now. I want to make my mom proud when I hold that graduation certificate 3 years later. And she'll be there saying "That's my daughter up there".

What about love and relationships? Well, I guess I'm just done with it for now. I'm not even interested in anyone or having any relationships. I can't handle any commitments right now. This phase is all about me. My head and heart focusing on one thing, my dream. Till I find that someone who well, at least has the same music taste as me and adores Glee, I'll just keep my heart closed and locked.

So, 3 more years to go. Here I come dream. Till then.