Stay

I'm gonna have to admit. I try to love someone else. Just to let him go. Just to move on. Cause I can't stand that painful agony I have to see everyday. It's so unfair how you know that you are meant to be but have to be apart on such a reason that you are not even sure of. It's literally frustrating. Then I realized, no matter what I do. No matter how much I try to love someone else. No matter how much I try to let go and move on, he'll always be the one. He'll always find his way back to my mind and just walk through the walls I build just like that. I have to accept the fact that my heart belongs to him and it will always be him. I can't get over him. I can't forget him and it's literally killing me. I feel so lost. So damn lost. I just. Sigh. I guess my probation is broken by saying I love you now, always and forever. It's time to break someone's heart and suffer the truth. The fact that I will not get him back. Till then.