Heart On My Sleeve

You won't know when you're really broken when that one last straw hits you like a F5 tornado. All you can do is stay low and wait for it to go away. All what's left is the mess, the damages, the ruins. So there you are, helplessly blaming yourself, complaining, cussing and hitting anything that's in your way. Picking up the pieces that's now broken into smaller pieces. How do you fix that? You cry, scream and shout for help and there's just no one, nothing. Nothing at all.

Everything that happens has a reason huh? Well, let me tell you this. Being hurt and hurt and hurt again doesn't really let you to think clearly, logically what can you do or what is the reason behind all of this. All it does is bleed. Bleed till there's nothing left. No more words, tears or anything to explain it. Yeah, I am stupid for letting you slip away, treating you like shit, spreading stories. But one thing you will never understand is the pain you put me through. All the unanswered questions I had to bare all by myself. Why? Because no one understands. NO ONE.

I told them because I really needed help. I wanted someone to listen. It felt better but then yeah, they are on your side too I guess. Round of applause for you and your fellow mates. I'm sorry if I "embarrassed" you. Don't worry, I won't blame anyone. I won't blame you too. I'll only blame myself for my naive attitude. You're just the same like others. Hoho you're just so happy right now right? You have everything you want. You, your friends, my friends, anyone, everyone will never ever understand the pain I'm baring now. The need to find comfort. To feel happy again. Don't even try to advice me, it's pointless. I don't listen to anyone. Maybe to considerations but others, I live my life in my damn way. Thanks anyways for nothing.

Well here's to that bitch ass that mentioned me in his beautiful, magnificent blog. You said you have more than wait, I don't care. LOL everyone is trying to make you see what the real world would be if you keep on having that not so high class attitude of yours. You're just a very miserable boy that wants everyone be as miserable as you are. I know. I'm not like you and you are definitely not like me. Yes, everybody judge. I don't even have your fucking twitter. What makes you think that I would fucking tweet about you? I'm not that free to waste my time on these like you said "petty" things.

I only started to get angry when you started thinking whatever they retweet was for you. Bitch please, you're not the only one with "friends". I do judge on facts and I'm right almost all the time. Nobody learns from mistake? Um hello? Basically, you're just talking craps. Well, I have nothing to say cause I really just don't give a fuck. Feel appreciated that I actually took out some of my time to write about you in my blog. You know? A return after the such good deed you did for me in yours. Haha. Thanks to you too. Till then.