2015's Hopes

Here it is, 2015 people! I just realized that I actually never set any New Year's resolutions for myself or any specific goals for each year. But there is one special event that is going to happen this year! I'm going to be 21 in 22 days! Can you believe it? I can't! I'm an adult now. But I don't look like one though. Hah!

I have a feeling that this year is going to be tougher than the previous years. First of all, I'll be having two of my major subjects which is Event Planning and Event Management. I'll be learning French too! But those two subjects though. I'm hoping for the best that I could survive that. I'm a planner alright but managing stuffs, I'm gonna need some time. I'm very scared because I really never seen myself as a Public Relations student. I always thought that I'm gonna write for a living. I'm terrified. It's okay, be positive! It's me we're talking about. Pfft. Hahaha

Secondly, I am so not looking forward to the dramas that I'm going to deal with. Especially the people there. Gosh, remind me why did I take Public Relations again. I'm the total opposite of what they are supposed to be. No, no. I made the right choice. I love what I'm learning. Anyways, I have a feeling 2015 is not going to be nice to me. Like all the previous years ever did. I'm hoping that no one close to me leaves. I don't want anyone to become someone that I used to know. Well for sure there will be tons of haters and fakers. Watch it! I'll skin you alive! *shows knife*

Thirdly, improve my weaknesses which is patience and tolerance. Like the one who doesn't go all psycho out of  nowhere. I'm going to be 21 and I surely have to start acting like one. I want, well need to have a better anger management. I just really hope that no one pisses me off because it will be very, very ugly. By ugly means bye-bye reputation and pride. Two of the things that matters the most in college life. But if I have what they don't and obviously can do so much better, people can't say anything. *evil grins* My talent can shut them up, whatever my talent is.

Forth, I'm also looking forward to a better me. I want to be better. I have to. I want people to see that I'm a star. Not to say that I'm not cause I already know that I am but you know, not all that glitters is gold. I want to have self-control too. Less emotions, less feelings involved in anything. I need to lock my heart tighter. Put more chains on it. I did started the year as single and the worst hangover ever. I do plan on staying that way, alone I mean not the hangover! I can focus better unless if he's the only exception kind of guy. That, I will not put my hopes on. I have no time for petty stuffs like that this year, maybe. We'll see how. Since my life never ever goes as planned.

Finally, I just want to be happy. I don't want to get hurt unless it's worth the pain. I don't want my happiness to be taken away. I want my mind to behave this year. I want my emotions to not show so much and I don't want to feel anything that is going to break my heart. I want to start the year with a strong determination and end the year with great achievements. Last but not least, surround myself with good people. Good friends that is going to be at my worst and deserves to be with me when I shine. Most of all, make my family happy.

I hope that it is not too much to ask. I know that throughout the year, complications are inevitable. They always find their way back to me somehow. I guess I work better under pressure. Hahaha all I hope that I'll be strong enough to handle whatever life throws me. So, Happy 2015! Till then, humans and other species.