Reasons

Everything happens for a reason. A phrase that is usually said to a person when things are bad in life. It is easy to believe at first but when bad things keep happening to you repeatedly, you tend to question yourself. Questions such as "What's wrong with me? Why does this keep happening to me? Why me? What have I done that is so wrong to deserve whatever I'm feeling now?" Sometimes the reasons for things to happen are just hard to discover when all you see is darkness that surrounds you.

Where in the sanity of your mind that's gonna figure out what possible reasons are there for you to go through so much heartache after going through it again and again? Is it because you haven't learn the lesson enough? Is it because apparently God has better plans for you? Or is it because you're just an awful person? You can find a million possible reasons to feed the emptiness in your heart and still couldn't find that inner peace.

I have personally questioned not only the people or the surroundings but I have questioned myself more than I think I ever will when things just don't go my way. I questioned myself every time when things go wrong. Where did I go wrong? What did I do? Maybe the problem is me, maybe it's not. So what is it? What is it about my life that people have to treat me with such cruelty? Is it because I'm too naive? Is it because I always choose to see things differently? Is it because I always choose to believe the good in people and always expect the best from them?

Really, what is it? I have loved and loved and loved. I have always been the one who would go the extra mile for anyone I know that's worthy but why do they have to treat me the other way? It's like the world is trying to tell me to stop being kind, to just give up already. I know that life is difficult and some are having it worse. But why do we always end up hurting each other? Where is the joy in making someone cry and let them go to sleep thinking they don't belong in this world? Why does the world has to be filled up with such cruelty, such hatred? Why?

Probably it's just a phase and pain in life is inevitable. However, happiness is what everyone deserves. Maybe there is a reason for everything that happens. Maybe the reason is for you to know that life is not only about the bad things that has happened but also the good things that came along. That little light is enough to burst out in the darkness of your mind. I guess we all just need to have a little faith no matter how things make you feel otherwise.

Till then.