Soulmate, Part II

"How are you feeling?". The one question that hits you. There are two kinds of people in this world. People who believes your "I'm fine" even when you're not and people who sees through your "I'm fine" and actually want to know how are you feeling. It's easy to have hope on good days. When you've been in a series of bad luck, holding on to hope seems impossible. But, that doesn't mean it's not possible.

In one of my previous post, I wrote something about my soulmate. I said we're different from the others because some people love each other because they make them a better person. That's not us. We love each other because we've always wanted us to be ourselves. We're not easy but we're also tough. It's easy to ignore the big things when we're going good. Both of us in the same wavelength, our mind, our soul, they just become one. We believe that we're meant to be.

But life isn't always rainbows and sunshine. Life is messy, life is complicated. When things don't go the way we plan, that's when we truly see each other. How we handle the hardship that are thrown at us. It tests how strong our relationship really is and how much we actually want each other. Whether we are able to look pass the problems, the misunderstandings, the fights and still be crazy about each other. This is when you know whether you are with the right person.

The pain can be overwhelming at times and yes I do, I do feel like giving everything up, many times. Cut this huge part of you that has been with me for two years. I did thought of leaving it all behind, grieve and move on. All the unkind words, the intense fights, the late night crying and all the wishes of needing you to hold me when I was so broken and alone. The pain is really, truly overwhelming. It's difficult to bear and what more to feel all of it at once.

It hurts so bad that you know it's real. You know that the love we have is something beyond that. Even in doubt, I choose to take the risk and believe that what we have for each other is not something that we can find again. I don't have to think twice when people ask me whether am I sure that you're my soulmate because I know you are. I somehow believe that even with nothing in return, me loving you is enough. I believe that we're still together for a reason.

We always find our way back to each other no matter what because that's what soulmates do. They go back to where they belong and we definitely belong together. That's just who we are and that's how I know we are meant to be. You are my Joel and I love you for being just you, even the annoying you. Till then.